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| location | Melbourne |
| date | 2026-06-30 |
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六月三日
意識到我其實確實不具備死記硬背的能力，因此依賴於各種各樣的紀錄方式。在造紙普及之前，人們是需要用腦子記住一切的。在電子紀錄成為默認之前，紀錄和查找也會受限於材料和空間。我其實也是受益於技術而以不同於祖先的方式使用大腦的。
AI究竟會怎樣影響下一代？
我還要抗拒抵制多久？我還能抗拒抵制多久？
失控感和秩序感，對我的影響實在是太大了。我需要做很多事情去抵抗。工作變得極其繁瑣，我也許應該考慮重新安排我的計劃/紀錄/反思體系。
六月七日
On my way back from a show, I walked along the park and immediately got reminded of the day I was here with L. We had a long walk and we hat many chats. At one point we stopped and I sat down on the grass, he lied down and used my thigh as pillow. The memory was so vivid as if still fresh, the wound got torn up again and the pain rushed in.
Luckily I adjusted quickly enough and soon walked out of the zone. I started thinking about C, and the image of C walking into the sea yesterday was even more vivid, and truly fresh. I took out my phone to text them, head down, unaware of my surroundings, until I smelled this sweet sweet fragrance. My body knew what it was even before my brain had a proper registration. Osmanthus, blooming just right there, only a couple of kilometres from where I live.
I took so much of the coincidence finding the osmanthus tree in the mountain as a sign, the serendipity of love last year. It’s wrong to overlook this encounter.
"Let’s buy it." After prompt web search, C replied, as we found out it would cost about 3 million dollars. My mood significantly brightened up.
六月十三日
去年這個時候的痛苦，時間還沒能完全磨平，那些徹夜難眠輾轉反側，在異國的街頭，森林裡徘徊至深夜，只想撫平被忽然拋棄的痛苦。
說過去一整年都在重建人生也毫不誇張。把自己從廢墟裡挖出來，一點點地填補。勉強沒死，和計劃著明年的活著，在這十二個月裡完成了這樣的過渡。
始終還是在痛著的。
六月二十四日
最尋常不過的一日某刻，生活忽然扭曲變形，用了三年的微波爐提醒的嘟聲毫無預兆地變得刺耳難忍。失序感難以抵擋。
六月二十九日
去年去德國前，L態度急轉直下，我的焦慮和痛苦從出發前就開始。我知道我不會這樣，但還是不住對自己說，這次絕對不要這樣。
My attraction towards C has grown over time. The more I engage in the love acts with them the more I love them. Their charming smile in the afternoon sunlight and the small, almost inaudible moan when we were kissing, are all I can think of in this long-haul flight.