| name | value |
| location | Melbourne |
| date | 2026-05-31 |
| dateFormat | dd-mmm-yyyy |
| slug | 2026May |
五月十六日
我很需要自己的時間。看電影，看演出，對我來說不是約會項目，而是我的自我充電。變得要跟別人一起，尤其是需要安排規劃，已經很繁瑣。變成要照顧別人的情緒，更加負擔。簡直再也不想。
看戲看電影對我來說本就是跟閱讀一樣，私人又隱密，為何非要一起？
五月三十日
A text from a number I couldn’t recognise came through. Simply a ":(". I wondered who it was. It stirred me up, and I had people to suspect. I feared it might be S. I wished it was L. I had no way to tell.
A whole year has passed.
五月三十一日
Sporadically I write in my five-year journal (which at this rate will probably take me 15 years to fill all the entries). This past week I visited it frequently. It is very triggering to read what I wrote last year. It is painful, but I guess that is the whole point of journalling—to write down what stirs me up in the moment. Reading back always me want to talk to past me, I wish I could have a conversation with her. Too bad that this only goes one-way. She could tell me what she had felt back then, but I cannot tell her what hurts or comforts me right now.